The pain how can I just delete the pain. How can I make my heart believe that it isn’t another lesson that he is about to learn. I play role that isn’t mine but I do all the efforts to memorize my lines, and my worst nightmare is that I freeze when I am on stage and words get stuck in my throat. I try my masks on before I go on stage I put them one by one and I revise every single word. I could feel my heart shiver in my chest like a dry tree about to lose all its leaves in a stormy winter night and trying hold on as long as it can and in sparkling light of thunder I see a hand coming I believe it will help me to stand in front of the wind yet it shakes my branches so hard that all my leaves fall down and as the light on the stage strikes my eyes all my masks fall and all my lines evaporate and my worst nightmare becomes a fact that I can t escape by waking up and the pain cant be deleted. There is no way to delete the pain.